I just figured out how to customize my background! I think it looks cute but that is just me.
The knees, oh the knees. Yesterday, for most of the day I felt like I had a TENS unit on my left leg. Now for those of you who don't know what that is, it is a device that you are hooked up to by electrodes and then it sends electric current through your leg. I started to freak out and then I decided that it was God creating cartilage in my knee and to just get on with it. Today there is nothing but some soreness from the exercises I did yesterday. So.....what do you think? I think I am going to have FAITH that I have had some regeneration. "Now faith is BEING SURE of what we hope for and CERTAIN of what we DO NOT SEE". Heb. 11:1.
Speaking of Hebrews, I am really loving to read there right now. I think Hebrews was written by Paul but no one is certain. Up there with Romans, I think they are 2 of my favorites to read.
May is going to be crazy for me. Ian turns 15! My mom is going to be 70!!!! That seems so weird for me. I wonder how many years I have left with her. Her mom was 79. I makes me sad. I do know that I will be okay and that she will be with the Lord but I will miss her so much.
Cameron has a new girlfriend. Sort of happy and sad at the same time. Always hoped he and Miss D would be together but I sure don't want to have ANY preconceived notions about Miss C. I DO NOT want to be the ugly M.I.L. I did not have one, well, I think that I may have had sort of one because Darrel and I were so young and stupid, but altogether I think Granny liked me. It always seems weird to me what we call our in-laws. We already have a mom and a dad so that seems weird and it seems slightly weird to call them Jim and Doris but why? I would want my D.I.L.'s to call me Beth and Darrel, Darrel. I don't know. I am just thinking out loud. A little late though considering Doris is dead and I have been married for 29 years!
Preston wants to have R. for his girlfriend by the end of the summer. It seems another rescue relationship again but maybe not. I think he would be open to me talking to him but I really never know. He can be such a whiner and complainer and seem really ungrateful. Oh but then I recall how very much like me he is. YOWZA! and Yuh-ikes! Man that is painful. I believe God had Preston be my son so that I can see on a regular basis what my heart looks like in human form. So glad that He sees me through Jesus and the Cross. Otherwise I would be toast...
I am reading Counsel from the Cross. It is helping me to realize and remember how powerful and loving and brutal and painful the Cross was. How much I don't deserve and how much God loves me. It is amazing and grace filled and overwhelming.
Thanks for reading.
We'll talk again soon.
